A boss, a colleague, a doctor, a relative, a friend, a lover… Each of us has felt the intensity of betrayal in one way or another; Someone has come into our lives and has taken the rug out from under our feet. In so, planting seeds of doubt in our own innate wisdom and leaving scars of self-doubt and shattered identity.
Betrayal is the most deeply wounding experience we have in our earthly bodies. There is such a depth of feeling with separation and the abandonment that follows when someone you trusted tears away at your innocence and makes you doubt your very safety.
It tweaks within us shadows beyond our reality on a deeply primal level. When we were coming into evolution, our tribe was the only thing surrounding us that was safe among predators and thieves. This trigger is our survival, our lizard brain and compels our immediate need to find safety.
And, in the world we now live (or did, just weeks ago), we disassociate, we go into denial. We choose distraction. We occupy ourselves with anything else than the feeling that we try to push away or down to the caverns of our psyche.
And we do this until we are forced to look at the truth.
Until we have experiences that birth betrayal’s awareness where we cannot look away.
I remember sitting in his living room, feeling my heart dropping out of my body and into the ground below my feet as Henry Golde told me the story about his childhood experience in Nazi Germany.
I remember at four years old and my father, still sleeping, with dead eyes coming at me on the attack until my mother stood between us screaming for him to wake up so that he wouldn’t kill me in this dream (it seemed we were having together, both confused), five years after he’d been home from Vietnam.
I remember my 20something body as my soul looked on from above, clawing the way up the staircase to my then apartment, blinded in hysterical tears, wrapped in emptiness as the man I loved took away what I believed at the time was my very reason for existence.
Whatever way we face betrayal, we are delivered to the truth to stand before it with nowhere else to turn if we are to continue to breathe. Because after a deep betrayal, a core deep betrayal, you actually will yourself to breathe each breath. You choose to move forward through the pain. It is an act of free will at its finest.
I am grateful for all of the above experiences (and the ones I didn’t share), the vicarious, the co-creator, the inevitable as they gave me opportunity after opportunity to heal the core wound of separation within me with help from compassion, understanding, and acceptance. I hope that you can see the correlation in the stories I shared. I hope that you can see the co-experience from each perspective.
I leaned within, and I faced my shadows and acknowledged my own value autonomous from the exterior world. I was able to build that foundation to such a degree that the only one who can shatter my identity, is me. Many of us have done similar work, and we are ready to come to the truth of this betrayal on such a grand level. But there are so many of us as a collective who have not had the experiences to do the preliminary preparations on a larger scale and who are not capable to deal with what is unfolding.
We are now experiencing the great betrayal. There will be a level of disclosure from our most trusted advisories, entertainers, and officials. The gift of this: remaining isolation, is to go within and face your shadows. To heal.
Through this remember there are waves of us that have done deep healing already and are prepared to assist you by BEing the light bringer’s, the love harbingers, the truth guides and supporters, to continue our journey and support you on yours.
The betrayal runs deep. The pain is raw. And there is hope.
Love is magnanimous, all-encompassing (when we surrender to it) and 10 times the power of any other eitheric energy in existence.
It’s time to embrace the coming changes with our sovereignty (our own self) intact. And love. Love is the wound healer. Love allows us to feel safe again, manifest our true desires, trust our awareness beyond experiences and, let it be our salvation. Let love bring us home.